wow! it has been more than a year since the last time i ever post something on this other blog.

i've been busy with work, even my primary blog over in yahoo! had suffered tremendously.

many things happened during the absence. met someone, conned by that particular someone, end the relationship, still searching, and after i had enough with men, met not just one, but three potential, which in the end, just hopeless blokes who broke my heart in little pieces.

my renewed resolution this year (yeah, i know, has been almost four months now!) is not to search, but just simply lead my life as normal as i can be. i think it's better for me to be like a flower, prim and proper, while the beautiful butterfly makes its way to me.

ah, i wish life can be that simple. the truth is, i'm so afraid that every new relationship will lead to disaster. every new man i bumped into will hurt me more than the last one.

i'm so grateful, though, at the time of chaos, i still have friends who are willing to be the shoulder to cry on, to lend their ears to listen to my woes, as if i'm the only person in this whole world that have some serious problem with men.

things changed so fast these days, i just don't have time to pause and think. i better run or risk to be left behind. wish me luck in this journey.